A little bit nerbous (as B would say)

I'm a little nervous.  A lot nervous.  It's past midnight and I am not in bed nervous.  B has his pediatrician appointment tomorrow so he can enter preschool.  This is the appointment where we take in all the tests from our DAN doctor.  I realize we should have done this earlier, but well, I was nervous.  This is the appointment where we politely decline any vaccines.  B is allergic to yeast, beef, pork and has large amounts of aluminum in his system.  Therefor he is allergic to yeast extract, bovine syrum, and gelatin.....not to mention more aluminum could send him into a tale spin.  Why should I be so worried about this?  The truth is I loathe going against the grain.  Biomedicine is looked down upon by conventional medicine, yet it is what is working for B.   Perhaps I shouldn't make assumptions.  Maybe B's pediatrician will be open minded about the treatment that has completely changed my little boy for the better.  Ugh, why is it so hard for me sometimes to hold onto the peace that comes from God?  I'm hoping a little meditation on Philippians 4:4-7 will help put my mind at ease and bring a sound sleep.

4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.